1. Something that i was glad to have shared with you today: i love, love, love that the boys both went to bed early for a change tonight and we spent some time talking, and taking those photos for my fetlife avatar (and yours!). It was fun and something we don’t usually do.
2. The most important (defining) thing that happened to me today: We were joking (okay… i was joking, and i probably have the bruise on my ass to show for it) about how i bring up a subject that i’m interested in exploring and you’ll ignore it for a year or two, then bring it up like its your idea and suddenly you love it. It is funny, but its hard, too. Sometimes i just have a feeling something will work, and you are resistant to the idea no-matter-what. i can’t help but wonder if that’s because if it comes from me you feel like its topping from the bottom, and this is your way of controlling the introduction of something new, or if you just need a while to mull things over before you can imagine how it might really go. Either way, it made me feel kind of sad to realize that no matter how many ideas i bring to you about how you might go about training me to be more humble… its just not going to matter. We aren’t doing anything that you don’t think of yourself.
3. Something that exasperated me today: I was really maxed out today. Its been a long week and i think PMS is kicking my lily while ass. i need a break so bad.
4. An overall rating of my day today (1-10): Today was about a 5.
5. Brain Dump:
i’m really just tired of being tired at this point. i really need a break. How do other mom/slaves do it? i never get a chance to just BE. i don’t get to just sit quietly with my thoughts for a few minutes. Meditate? Pft. i can barely think while multi-tasking. i barely get time to shower. i just need a break.
i have felt close to tears off and on all day long. It’s been a tough day. Maybe some sleep tonight will help.
