1. Something i wished i could have shared with you today: Today was a tough day in a lot of ways. i made those sausage sandwiches that you like so well for dinner, and i wish you could have been here to share that with us. i wish i could have helped your headache.
2. The most important (defining) thing that happened to me today: i guess the conversations we’re having about all the changes going on right now. You know how hard change is for me. The haircut and piercing this weekend are visible reminders of the internal and relationship changes we’re going through. It’s exciting and it’s also hard. i’m so on edge. i don’t know how i’m going to feel from one minute to the next. i wish i could just make peace with it all. i wish i knew how to do that.
3. The song that’s been stuck in my head today: i have no idea what the name of the song is, and the name of the duo that sings it has slipped my mind, too. (i’m getting foggier as it gets later, i’m sorry). But, there’s a chorus that goes “OoohooOhhhOoohhhOohhhooo, OoohoohhooohhhhOohhoo, oooo” or something like that. Danged things been in my head all day long – just that part. :/
4. Something that exasperated my today: i had a few things. The two biggest ones were the 2YO having his meltdown after dinner tonight, and you telling me i was going to be punished for staying up too late last night.
5. An overall rating of my day today 1-10: Today was about a 6 on average. There were times it ramped up to a 9, but sometimes it hovered around a 4.
6. Brain Dump:
i’m so tired. It was really difficult to have the boys wait for C to get her senior pictures taken. An hour in a place that is not suitable for babies was about 45 minutes too long.
My dad said he overdid it with us gone today. Guilt? Why, yes please. Might i have some more?
i didn’t get a few chores done that i needed to do. i did finish all the things on your task list though. Woot!
The haircut and the nose ring are exciting news. i’m happy and i’m nervous. i can’t wait for you to be home tomorrow.
i’m not sure that i feel slave-y, but i definitely feel controlled. It’s…. an amazing feeling. i like it. i’m scared of it. i want more. i want less. Heh. i guess i just need to be held for a while… some crying might help too. i’m such a girl.
i enjoyed finding the lingerie for you, and the nose ring search was lots of fun, too. It is a nice splash of red. So much red after so little! Ack! i read, but only a little bit. i’m excited about my new magazines, too. It was nice to go looking around Longs with C and the boys. Someone asked her if the 2YO was hers. She pointed me out too them. No one expects them all to be mine.
Tomorrow i need to get my dad to his appointment by 10:10. We will have to visit the lab, since the home-care RN won’t be coming out. He wants to go by Wal-Mart and get himself some shorts, a new belt… and some other stuff (i can’t remember everything he listed). Before we leave i need to get breakfast for everyone, get myself a shower and make sure my dad gets one for himself. i’m hoping to be home in time to get lunch on for everyone. i need to do laundry (i didn’t get to that today), bring up the cans from the street, mail some stuff for my dad, and clean the bathroom. i need to clean his room, too. D-dog needs a good brushing. Man… my list never-ever ends.
i’ll send you an email before i go to sleep with a list of everything on the calendar for this weekend so you can make plans. i adore you and i miss you so bad. Tomorrow afternoon can’t get here soon enough and i know that Monday will be here before we get a chance to turn around.
